I am not going to apologize for my absence from writing like I usually do. I cannot write when I'm wading through trauma. I'm still doing so, but my anxiety is compelling me to express it. So here we are. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer last week. She found a lump on her …
Continue reading 2020, I Don’t Even Know What to Say to You.
A few months ago, my book club chose this book, and I'm glad we did. I don't think I would have read it otherwise. First off, let me say that this book is not as dark as the title makes it seem. It's actually a lovely narrative whose plot line follows a whodunit mystery. It …
Continue reading Book Report: Drive your Plow Over the Bones of the Dead
Here are some photos of things I’ve been making lately in quarantine in no particular order, recipe included: Instant Pot deviled eggs recipe No recipe to for the cherry pie. I used the directions on the back of the cherry filling can. And it’s magic. Recipe from Half Baked Harvest Highly recommend this no knead …
I used to think dissociation was an odd type of mental health issue that paired with dissociative identity disorder, DID. After intense periods of reflection and therapy, I realize that I dissociated for nine months last year. And I do it naturally without even thinking about it. This is why I have a very high …
I’m feeling very uninspired lately. And I’m trying to sit in that, process it, and move on. Apparently that’s how we deal with emotions, according to my therapist. It sounds so painfully simple. But it’s not. Sending heart to anyone and everyone who needs it. Acknowledging that it’s a privilege to have a job, access …
Tonight I heard the distant roll of thunder for the first time in months. Maybe in a year. Last year, I wasn’t in a space to appreciate small miracles like the thunder and rain. But tonight, as I lay in bed with my wonderful partner, we heard the rumble (over an episode of Boy Meets …
Since covid-19 infiltrated our ivory towers, I have been silent. It’s partly because social distancing is starting to get to me and partly because I am struggling to find daily delights. Some days I find many delights, but most days find me anxiously awaiting worse and worse news. The roller coaster of corona being treated …
Alright, it's time for me to talk about it. The coronavirus has been scaring me shitless, so much so that I dedicated a lot of time to it in my last therapy sesh. For me, looking over the cliff into the abyss is what nightmares are made of. I've always thought that if society was …
Continue reading This is the Only Thing That Assuaged My Coronavirus Fears
As many of you may know, I have been a Taylor Swift fan from the almost beginning. It's uncanny how she writes songs that seem to speak to my exact experiences in a timely manner. Like her journey into understanding feminism and how to apply that to our daily lives. In this video, she challenges …
When I recently read a weight inclusive article written by someone who does not inhabit a larger body, I became instantly uncomfortable. In my privilege, I haven't really experienced someone including me in a broad brush stroke of a politically correct term. Anger quickly replaced feeling uncomfortable. Now I fucking get it. I've heard various …
Continue reading Is “Person of Size” the new “Person of Color”?
