Being almost three years out after cancer treatment and surgery, writing an update on my health feels weird. Like who wants to read about my health now that I am cancer-free? As you may already know, the more times a person has cancer, the more likely they are to have it recur, which is what …
Hi friends. I haven't written about my medical status on here in a long while, mostly because I've been feeling great. However, about a month ago, I started having some pains in my abdomen that felt like ovarian cancer pain. Though I see my gynologic oncologist every three months, I gave them a call. I …
{^^^This was me the week I started the blog!} The seven year anniversary of this blog happened earlier this week. When I look back on where I was, how I was when I started this blog, I am in awe. This blog began as a travel blog because my dream job then was to be …
This time last year, I was awaiting a surgery during which I was sure I was going to die. I tried everything I knew to attempt to separate my fear from my intuition, but they still slither inside me, intertwined. I was waiting to have my kidney removed, to have my bladder resected. I was …
My poor therapist has listened to me carry on about death and about being scared of it for months now. Hyper-vigilance is a part of life after cancer. Is that pain my cancer coming back? Am I not hungry because my cancer is back? Is this the time it's going to kill me? Part of …
I used to think dissociation was an odd type of mental health issue that paired with dissociative identity disorder, DID. After intense periods of reflection and therapy, I realize that I dissociated for nine months last year. And I do it naturally without even thinking about it. This is why I have a very high …
Tonight I heard the distant roll of thunder for the first time in months. Maybe in a year. Last year, I wasn’t in a space to appreciate small miracles like the thunder and rain. But tonight, as I lay in bed with my wonderful partner, we heard the rumble (over an episode of Boy Meets …
Brain fog, chemo brain, mental clouding. Since I completed my treatment and returned to work, my brain slowly became sharper, faster, and left my brain fog in the dust. My memory improved exponentially, my focus was clear, and I felt so grateful for my mental acuity returning. However, that only lasted for a few fleeting …
Mae Goes West 