Hi friends. I haven't written about my medical status on here in a long while, mostly because I've been feeling great. However, about a month ago, I started having some pains in my abdomen that felt like ovarian cancer pain. Though I see my gynologic oncologist every three months, I gave them a call. I …
This time last year, I was awaiting a surgery during which I was sure I was going to die. I tried everything I knew to attempt to separate my fear from my intuition, but they still slither inside me, intertwined. I was waiting to have my kidney removed, to have my bladder resected. I was …
My poor therapist has listened to me carry on about death and about being scared of it for months now. Hyper-vigilance is a part of life after cancer. Is that pain my cancer coming back? Am I not hungry because my cancer is back? Is this the time it's going to kill me? Part of …
I used to think dissociation was an odd type of mental health issue that paired with dissociative identity disorder, DID. After intense periods of reflection and therapy, I realize that I dissociated for nine months last year. And I do it naturally without even thinking about it. This is why I have a very high …
Definition: anxiety over upcoming text results. A term widely used in cancer circles. I’m awaiting my first blood test results since my surgery hospital stay. For the most part, I’m feeling great consistently. Hardly any pain though low energy is still a struggle. But that could change after this appointment. What if the cancer is …
And now, as promised, the exciting conclusion (still read that in a 90s movie trailer voice. I have been rewatching a lot of 90s movies...)! Moving Forward: I went to my gyn onc on Monday and he gave me the BEST news! I don't have to do any radiation, so I'm essentially done with active …
I've been writing these posts in my head for about three weeks now. What happened in surgery, how I'm recovering physically and emotionally, and my treatment plan moving forward has been a lot for me to digest and then put into coherent words. This may not be coherent, but this is my stream of consciousness …
Continue reading Mary Maegan Brundage, January 14, 19 something: A Cancer Story
By some miracle, we have reached $10,000 on my GoFundMe campaign. I cannot even believe it. People I haven't seen in person for maybe a decade are donating. People who changed my diapers are donating. I have the deepest gratitude for each donor and for each well wish and prayer. It's a little over a …
Mae Goes West 