This time last year, I was awaiting a surgery during which I was sure I was going to die. I tried everything I knew to attempt to separate my fear from my intuition, but they still slither inside me, intertwined. I was waiting to have my kidney removed, to have my bladder resected. I was …
Every now and then, when I read something I've written to Malcolm, his eye brows rise up and up until they threaten his hairline. He tightens his lips like he's literally holding something in that he doesn't want to say. I imagine he's thinking, "Wow, I can't believe she would post that on the internet," …
I used to think dissociation was an odd type of mental health issue that paired with dissociative identity disorder, DID. After intense periods of reflection and therapy, I realize that I dissociated for nine months last year. And I do it naturally without even thinking about it. This is why I have a very high …
Tonight I heard the distant roll of thunder for the first time in months. Maybe in a year. Last year, I wasn’t in a space to appreciate small miracles like the thunder and rain. But tonight, as I lay in bed with my wonderful partner, we heard the rumble (over an episode of Boy Meets …
Since covid-19 infiltrated our ivory towers, I have been silent. It’s partly because social distancing is starting to get to me and partly because I am struggling to find daily delights. Some days I find many delights, but most days find me anxiously awaiting worse and worse news. The roller coaster of corona being treated …
I’ve got two for you today. I bought a car last week for the first time ever on my own! We’ve had about 8 total inches of snow this week which meant two two-hour delays. I feel so independent now that I can actually get places in snow. No more canceling plans or calling into …
When I first noticed the 90s creeping back into our mainstream culture, I resisted it hard. I remember walking through Target seeing crop tops, jean skirts, scrunchies, and those plastic black chokers and I immediately became uncomfortable. I didn't understand until I got home that I was NOT mentally or emotionally prepared to be reminded …
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I have been a Bernie supported since the beginning. I caucused for Bernie Sanders in 2016 and I'm damn sure going to do it again. This morning I found a quiz from the Washington Post that shows which candidates align with your views the most. Though I was a little apprehensive to take it because …
When I began writing this post, I looked at my title, "Gratitude" and rolled my eyes. I encounter that word everywhere as well as "mindfulness", "meditation", "self-care", etc. While these are all wonderful practices that make me feel grounded and at peace, just the words and the frequency of their use is beginning to annoy …
My best friend of 25 years sent me this picture today and it made me cry. I wish I could say I remember this cause I was obviously having the best time. I remember this house though. Even more so than my house where I lived when this picture was taken. I still have dreams …
