I used to think dissociation was an odd type of mental health issue that paired with dissociative identity disorder, DID. After intense periods of reflection and therapy, I realize that I dissociated for nine months last year. And I do it naturally without even thinking about it. This is why I have a very high …
Tonight I heard the distant roll of thunder for the first time in months. Maybe in a year. Last year, I wasn’t in a space to appreciate small miracles like the thunder and rain. But tonight, as I lay in bed with my wonderful partner, we heard the rumble (over an episode of Boy Meets …
Since covid-19 infiltrated our ivory towers, I have been silent. It’s partly because social distancing is starting to get to me and partly because I am struggling to find daily delights. Some days I find many delights, but most days find me anxiously awaiting worse and worse news. The roller coaster of corona being treated …
I’ve got two for you today. I bought a car last week for the first time ever on my own! We’ve had about 8 total inches of snow this week which meant two two-hour delays. I feel so independent now that I can actually get places in snow. No more canceling plans or calling into …
When I first noticed the 90s creeping back into our mainstream culture, I resisted it hard. I remember walking through Target seeing crop tops, jean skirts, scrunchies, and those plastic black chokers and I immediately became uncomfortable. I didn't understand until I got home that I was NOT mentally or emotionally prepared to be reminded …
Continue reading How Recent 90s Fashion Brought up Old Scars that Needed More Nurture
I have been a Bernie supported since the beginning. I caucused for Bernie Sanders in 2016 and I'm damn sure going to do it again. This morning I found a quiz from the Washington Post that shows which candidates align with your views the most. Though I was a little apprehensive to take it because …
When I began writing this post, I looked at my title, "Gratitude" and rolled my eyes. I encounter that word everywhere as well as "mindfulness", "meditation", "self-care", etc. While these are all wonderful practices that make me feel grounded and at peace, just the words and the frequency of their use is beginning to annoy …
My best friend of 25 years sent me this picture today and it made me cry. I wish I could say I remember this cause I was obviously having the best time. I remember this house though. Even more so than my house where I lived when this picture was taken. I still have dreams …
And now, as promised, the exciting conclusion (still read that in a 90s movie trailer voice. I have been rewatching a lot of 90s movies...)! Moving Forward: I went to my gyn onc on Monday and he gave me the BEST news! I don't have to do any radiation, so I'm essentially done with active …
I've been writing these posts in my head for about three weeks now. What happened in surgery, how I'm recovering physically and emotionally, and my treatment plan moving forward has been a lot for me to digest and then put into coherent words. This may not be coherent, but this is my stream of consciousness …
Continue reading Mary Maegan Brundage, January 14, 19 something: A Cancer Story
